One year ago today, the 03/08/2018 I started this blog in secret because my depression was rapidly worsening and my at the time partner/fiancé had just locked me out completely. I wasn't allowed to post on Facebook because I was putting my entire life online. A lot has changed since. So far as I can … Continue reading One year later
When I first saw 13 Reasons Why advertised on Netflix it really sparked my interest, the story was close to home in a way as I had lived through a rape. I had suffered blame for something that was out of my control and slandering tales told by my attacker to mutual parties in an … Continue reading 13 Reasons Why
In April or May of 2016 Myra had quite a few of parties and although she didn't drink alcohol a lot of her guests did. The reason I knew this is because I kept getting put on bin duty and the glass recycling was always overflowing after her parties. Normally the guests weren't too bad … Continue reading Literal shit storm
After I was attacked I didn't really have the option to move out. I had little to no money and still hadn't paid off my deposit on the room. I hadn't even been living there for a month before this happened. The housemates weren't aware but even so it wasn't easy to live with them. … Continue reading Life in the house post-rape
A key that opens many locks is a master-key; a lock that gets opened by many keys is a shitty lock. - Glaswegian proverb. I didn't know what slut-shaming was until a few days ago. I had heard the term used but I hadn't put thought into what it meant or why it was being … Continue reading Slut-shaming
Throughout my life, I have had many experiences with alcohol. Since I was about ten there was a glass of Buck's Fizz at Christmas dinner and another shortly after at Hogmanay. I didn't get whisky until I had a toothache at 15 and my dad was high on painkillers and told me to. I actually … Continue reading I am probably an alcoholic
Yesterday the psychologist I saw asked me what I wanted to achieve by pressing charges and what I wanted the justice system to do. I hadn't really thought about this as such because I am sadly not expecting the justice system to do anything. It has been over two years and the only evidence is … Continue reading What do I want to achieve?