13 Reasons Why

When I first saw 13 Reasons Why advertised on Netflix it really sparked my interest, the story was close to home in a way as I had lived through a rape. I had suffered blame for something that was out of my control and slandering tales told by my attacker to mutual parties in an … Continue reading 13 Reasons Why

Life in the house post-rape

After I was attacked I didn't really have the option to move out. I had little to no money and still hadn't paid off my deposit on the room. I hadn't even been living there for a month before this happened. The housemates weren't aware but even so it wasn't easy to live with them. … Continue reading Life in the house post-rape

What do I want to achieve?

Yesterday the psychologist I saw asked me what I wanted to achieve by pressing charges and what I wanted the justice system to do. I hadn't really thought about this as such because I am sadly not expecting the justice system to do anything. It has been over two years and the only evidence is … Continue reading What do I want to achieve?

How my life partner found out I was raped

In early 2017 I had my own flat but slept more often than not in my boyfriend's studio apartment. I was being made to watch 13 Reasons Why. It's a very graphic, amazing and serious. It was also a trigger for me that I reacted to with drink because I learnt fairly early on alcohol … Continue reading How my life partner found out I was raped

Patreon support

The support I have had since starting this blog is so much more than I ever expected, in about six weeks I have had over 1000 visitors. Over 150 followers. Over 200 likes. I was never expecting this. To celebrate how well this is going I have opened a Patreon page here. There are three … Continue reading Patreon support

How the homeowner reacted to the rape

Mrs Leroy didn't hear about the attack from me. She heard about it in the middle of March from Myra who I still think of as her pet. Myra didn't ask me if she could tell Mrs Leroy, didn't communicate it beforehand or anything. I just got a text from Myra one day after I … Continue reading How the homeowner reacted to the rape

How it began – an introduction to my life in France

I came to France in 2012 when I was 20, I was considered to be an economic migrant. I thought my work chances would be better here that they were in the United Kingdom and although life was hard I can say it was much more rewarding. I didn’t really do much remarkable, in France … Continue reading How it began – an introduction to my life in France

How I coped with being raped

When I was living in this shared house privacy was available and my door did lock, but that never seemed to stop people knocking or sending me texts. The walls were thin, I could hear most of what was happening in the living and dining rooms downstairs. Otherwise, you could see into my window from … Continue reading How I coped with being raped

The worst day of my life

Today is the day I go to the police station to give my recorded statement. Today is as good of a day as any to share my story with the world. I'll be sharing it with the police after all. I'm anxious, French is not my mother tongue, when I went to give my provisional … Continue reading The worst day of my life